live and let live
it's quite liberating to be able to say 'no hard feelings' and truly mean it. most of the time it's difficult if not impossible. i'm human and i get my feelings hurt...it has taken many years of self exploration and the proper cocktail of meds to admit that. < calico patting herself on the back >
no matter how impartial most of us attempt to remain in our relationships it becomes rather twisted and tangled once we cross over to a particular degree of intimacy with someone. we have exposed a portion of ourselves that has, until then, been carefully guarded. so having given up -we look to get back, right? oh i'd love to be the benevolent soul who gives and gives and expects nothing in return but even generosity is a form of manipulation.
we want to feel good...if playing the angel or the asshole gets us there it really doesn't matter as long as we get to that good feeling. i am laughing this very minute because i have just snapped out of a day dream that has lasted several weeks. i've been kind-of floating thinking i could play at life the way other people do - to grasp for those things that are supposed to provide comfort and delight. now where on earth did i get the idea that any of that was meant for me?
prevention is kinder than destruction. each year over six million healthy dogs, cats, puppies and kittens are killed as surplus. remember: neuter, spay and don't let them stray!